I have made an effort towards my goal, but i tried .

desire and patience always will be within me .

satisfaction is not everything,

love the person around us .

I used to called you my girl,
I used to called you my friend,
I used called you the love,
The love that i never had,
When i think of you,
I dont know what to do,
When will i see you again ?

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say,
Every minute of everyday
Girl im so down,
When your love not around ..

the reason it hurts


so much to separate,


Its because our soul are connected .

Sebastian my dear friend . Im not emo this year it just what i have done stupid thing and i hurt her feeling, till now i never forgive myself doing that . I dont know why i did that . Till now that person still doesnt forgive me . If she does, she never like this ignore me . That why im feeling sad . BUT i trying to turn the situation back to before .

Today the pain in my stomach is getting hurting . The person i always think about doesnt care even a little, but doenst matter . Now i have change from a bad person to a good and responsible person . I didnt flirt with other girl, and that people saying about me . I am waiting for some one special to give me the answer . I have gotten all credit for my subject but not sejarah and moral . I hope this might change her thinking about me . I have care enough for her but in return favour, she still hates me . Although she said that she forgive me , but deep down inside her heart she did not . If she did, she never ignore me like that . Im feeling that somebody saying bad about me and told her that but actually im not .

Today woke up at 8am and getting ready to go challenger . Akmal, Daniel, Ching Jin and me went for futsal . We played against the college student . Damn one of his friend kick my stomach . Now im feeling pain . The pain is coming back and forward like nobody business . Damn pain ..Shit!!!!!!!!

Haiz ..She din text me ..damn sad ..haiz is normal ..damn freaking miss her ....

I din expect many thing from you . I just want you to give a chance to show that im truly . That time you say that you will give me a chance but suddenly u change mind so fast . From happy bcome heart broke . But still i wouldn't give up . When i think back bout las time , it make me feel happy . Yes ! i knw i throw my chances away , but ppl do make mistake . Do they deserve another chance ma ? im not lik others guys , coz i knw i can do better , coz u make felt comfortable whenever around with me . So i want to do the best for you .

Am i treating you badly ? why cant i be a good person to you ? why cant i be the one to know your feeling . You avoid most of the time, while you having good time with your friends, inever wanted to interupt you . You treat me like invincible . Im trying to be nice, to accompanie you, make you feel comfortable with me . You never given me chance . My heart is breaking into pieces . While we were in home, you never wanted to sms . Its feel frustrate but still, no matter what you do, i never angry of you.

Its all ... its all ...you're my sunshines after the rain, you're the cure against my fear and my pain . Cause im losing my mind when you're not around ..its all becausse of you . Baby i really knw by now since we met that day, you showed me the way, i felt it then you gave me love that i cant describe, how much i feel for you . Baby i should have known by now i should have been right there, whenever you gave me love and f only you were here, i'd tell you that i miss you so much ..=)=)=)=)