This would be my last post on my blog . I wan to make you guys realize something.


When you love, there no such thing as loving a little, but loving all the way. Love may not ask you to give up your life but it will require a lot of sacrifices for the special person and the precious moment of all . Love is a noble act of self-giving, offering trust, faith and loyalty. The more you love, the more you lose the part of yourself, yet you don't become less of who you are; you end up with complete with your love one's . Choices that deal with love are like alcohol, when you are under influence of it tend to do things that you regret later on . Life is a mystery to be lived, not to be solved . One must learn to love oneself before one can learn to love others . Happiness is not found on the end of the road, it is experienced along the way . So take not for granted each moment of your life and you will find a reason to be happy each day . Life is filled with happiness, sadness, tears, smiles, laughter and other emotions but when life gets you down, just be strong about it and keep your head up high and have all faith in all things in life, Always remember; God is at your side always . I've learned that things change, people change, and its doesnt mean you forget the past or tried to cover it up; it simplymeans that you move on and treasure the memories . Letting it go doesnt mean giving it up, it means accepting weren't meant to be . sometimes our trusting hand that guides us through life wont always be there, and that the time when you really grow up and face life for the first time. But that hand will always close by. That's why great courage to love, knowing it might end anytime but having the faith it will lasted forever. Sometimes the people who you thought you knew, start becoming the stranger that you never wanted . Life is not about WHAT i've done, what SHOULD i've done, what COULD i've done ..its all about what i can do and what i will do . When you become the victim of a hateful heart trust your soul and walked away. Change is hard, you fight to hold on, yet you fight to let go. Never cry over somebody who never cry over you. Crying never lessens your dignity as a person, but its enchances our personality as a human being .

I have made an effort towards my goal, but i tried .

desire and patience always will be within me .

satisfaction is not everything,

love the person around us .

I used to called you my girl,
I used to called you my friend,
I used called you the love,
The love that i never had,
When i think of you,
I dont know what to do,
When will i see you again ?

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say,
Every minute of everyday
Girl im so down,
When your love not around ..

the reason it hurts


so much to separate,


Its because our soul are connected .

Sebastian my dear friend . Im not emo this year it just what i have done stupid thing and i hurt her feeling, till now i never forgive myself doing that . I dont know why i did that . Till now that person still doesnt forgive me . If she does, she never like this ignore me . That why im feeling sad . BUT i trying to turn the situation back to before .

Today the pain in my stomach is getting hurting . The person i always think about doesnt care even a little, but doenst matter . Now i have change from a bad person to a good and responsible person . I didnt flirt with other girl, and that people saying about me . I am waiting for some one special to give me the answer . I have gotten all credit for my subject but not sejarah and moral . I hope this might change her thinking about me . I have care enough for her but in return favour, she still hates me . Although she said that she forgive me , but deep down inside her heart she did not . If she did, she never ignore me like that . Im feeling that somebody saying bad about me and told her that but actually im not .

Today woke up at 8am and getting ready to go challenger . Akmal, Daniel, Ching Jin and me went for futsal . We played against the college student . Damn one of his friend kick my stomach . Now im feeling pain . The pain is coming back and forward like nobody business . Damn pain ..Shit!!!!!!!!

Haiz ..She din text me ..damn sad ..haiz is normal ..damn freaking miss her ....

I din expect many thing from you . I just want you to give a chance to show that im truly . That time you say that you will give me a chance but suddenly u change mind so fast . From happy bcome heart broke . But still i wouldn't give up . When i think back bout las time , it make me feel happy . Yes ! i knw i throw my chances away , but ppl do make mistake . Do they deserve another chance ma ? im not lik others guys , coz i knw i can do better , coz u make felt comfortable whenever around with me . So i want to do the best for you .

Am i treating you badly ? why cant i be a good person to you ? why cant i be the one to know your feeling . You avoid most of the time, while you having good time with your friends, inever wanted to interupt you . You treat me like invincible . Im trying to be nice, to accompanie you, make you feel comfortable with me . You never given me chance . My heart is breaking into pieces . While we were in home, you never wanted to sms . Its feel frustrate but still, no matter what you do, i never angry of you.

Its all ... its all ...you're my sunshines after the rain, you're the cure against my fear and my pain . Cause im losing my mind when you're not around ..its all becausse of you . Baby i really knw by now since we met that day, you showed me the way, i felt it then you gave me love that i cant describe, how much i feel for you . Baby i should have known by now i should have been right there, whenever you gave me love and f only you were here, i'd tell you that i miss you so much ..=)=)=)=)

I never gonna have a good night sleep ..ci bai ..

NOw, every word i say is true. I have no other way to say it ..only by showing you my true heart that is i will prove it and i will wait for you till next year . Every little thing i do, never seems enough for you. i dont want to lose you again, im not lik other guy you know. Im happy when u were with me .

I never wanred to hurt ur heart in the first place, i did not know what had happen . Now i finally realize that u care bout me . Anyway, i tryin to get back with you together again. I will find not you that often now, cause i doesnt wanted to reply me. I hope that u will come and seek for me once in the while that we can chat something . Before that incident we talk alot, we laugh, we cry and so many thing that we do . I dont want to break your heart again . And when i hold your hand, i dont to let it go again . I hope if u say that u are busy, make sure that is true .

A bachelor ..always a lonely bachelor ..haiz ..

I been thinking quite a long time to tell you something ..last time you and me quite close together, it was fun whenever i think back the past . But that make me got the feeling of u . I swear i wont break ur heart again, i hav promise myself that and that wont happen again to you . I will always be cool and calm . Anything happen we can talk now . Everything that i say to you, is true . Im all about you .=)

Im really sorry i hav done ..i do not knw how to tell u that im so sorry ..im sorry that i disrespect you ..iwan to tell u that i lik u all along ..im suffering from bot talking to you ..i cant past all the day without u around ..i wan to see u, i wan to hold u all along ..u are the only person that i lik the most ..i dont konw weather other got say any bad thing behind me and giving u any advise ..i willing to change anything for u ..i am waiting for after SPM and till next year ..i wan to show my words is true all bout you ..i knw u hate me ..but in my life i never hate u before ..i wan u to knw that im sorry what i have done to u the previous time ..now i knw how is the feeling is when a closes person not with you ..im here without you now my dear ..i shouldnt hav do tat to you in the first place ..i wan u to understand me that i lik u so much ..jus giv me another chance to prove it to you ..i knw i can and i wil ..but now u are ignoring me ..i knw u wan to do that to let me see what i have done to previous time ..

I really cant believe what i saw yesterday . I just couldn't get rid of my mind . What is it like this ? What is their problem ? i been quite close to them but they wouldn't tell me ..what is this ..? i really have no hope on them already ..what should i do ?

This is my new racket ..the red is the new one cost RM120 ans the green one a bit older it cost RM140 ..im damn happy ..now i can play the inter state next month now.

Haiz my mum won't change the guitar string for me ...so sad ..

Huuuraaayyyy !!!!! Manchester United have won the League Cup again . ARSENAL LOSER !!!!!

This is one of the Best of the Best for me !!!

Second place for the SECOND TIME ! What the ''F''

Second place, got improvement !

YOOOOOOOOOOO ...third place

Today is the best day of my life . Hope i could score my Sejarah paper, i have try all my best on it . This is the first time ever that i wrote so many thing in my paper 2, i can't believe it . Im must be damn pro la .

I'm here without you baby . You were always on my mind that i can't forget you that easily . Trying so difficult to have this opportunity , i can't afford to lose it now . You still with me in my dream .

What happen ..? why ..? im sad looking at you like these ..i tried to comfort you ..but you seem to avoiding me and ignoring me ..

Yesterday night . Iwas feeling sad along . Hard to sleep . Something in my mind that i dont want to lose something . I was trying so hard to make *** feel better and i wanted to comfort *** but in the end, whats is going to happen, i will not know about it .

Why am i feeling sad and wanted to cry all of the sudden ..? is sumthing hurting me or there are sumone talking bad about me from my back ..?

Well ...this time im really goin to change my life ...im goin to forget everything i wan, everything that i love, that i admires of, that special to me no matter a thing or ppl . This song named Shine by Mr.Big really making me to forget everything in my life . I feel like i wanted to do sumthing special for the one las time ...is either making me happy or sad ..is quite complex to explain this feeling inside me ..

Can anybody help me to download a song named Shine by Mr.big ?

Well ..i try my best to see the way that i wanted,

but it seems the expectation was not full fill that i wanted,

so i better give up ..

LOOK AT ME AND PEI YING ..HAHAHA
Too bad lay hoong is not in there wit me ...T.T huhu

Friday, i have badminton Cheng Fai and me lost in the doubles game to Andy and SHORTY but we still manage to beat BERUANG aggregate 3:2 . We fought against the HARIMAU and they totally out beat us . But the are good cause they have the MSSKL players . THe bast thing is LAY HOONG cheer for me the most . AT least we still get a SILVER . WE ARE NO.1 AND WE SAY WE ARE NO.1 HELANG !!!!!

Past two days i hav games carnival . That was my first game to play tat is Table-Tennis . Unfortunately we HELANG lost to BERUANG and defeated SELADANG to fight for third place . In the end we still happy . Our FAN-CLUB captain that is LAY HOONG supported us all the way . Still is gud enough .

Something is wrong now . I could feel it, something is very apart from me now . I doesn't know what to do now . Is making me sad every now and then . What i should do now ? im realy geting pist now ..

today i felt sad . i mean very sad . everyday were going smooth but den suddenly . 2day is a bit different to me . i wanted to tel out sumthing but is hard for me . i couldn't it . i dunno how am i goin to expos it to ..

This is th braclet that i wanted to giv u since las year ..plez accept this

Today is Valentine Day ..my ex is going out wit my fren . I mean is my closest fren . Thats really break my heart and is painfull than breaking my own hand . I really dunno how to explain it . The feeling i had now, is tearing up my heart into pieces now . And today, im really lonely . Few frenz does concern about me but still nothing could cheer me up now . I could feel the fire is burning inside me . Everyday im trying to clear my mind but i couldn't . Today should be my special day wit someone but my expectation was not fullfilled.

Many people criticise me behind with their personal blogs . 'i bet u knw wat im i trying to say here', but fine in that case i wont talk with either of u all strating on now onward . I treated u all lik frenz but u all treated me lik a fraud . Then tats the end of it.

im really damn sad la ..valentine not even a single secret admire came and gave me something . I hav forgotten to giv Li peng a valentine gift and Jia Yin too . im trying hard now these days . I dunno why ...nowsdays i having 1 meal oni per day but i doesn't felt anything, jus feel sad . 2ml my classmates are goin to Pavillion on Valentine day . Haiz damn sad la ..

Haiz ....damn seinnzzz la ...evry time oso got homework to do ...damn frustrate la . Got 3 contoh Karangan to do and math 3 pages ...haiz ...but a las i drop account and take Perdagangan, but i feel sory for my teacher Puan Faezah . Hope She understand .

2day Yew Kwan is not happy. Im not sure why. But he look sad. He says that his friend now are far apart from him adi. He look very cute when he feel down . 2ml im doing the lisan for BM. Im doing about Shih Huang Thi the first emperor of China. I hope it will be moving smooth and score an 'A'

I feel sory for everyone ..I feel very upset nothing in the world could cheer me up anymore. I hav loses her now permanently. I wil never going to c her again now. Thing hav change now. I hav to concentrate on my studies. The necklace i bought for her it jus a waste now. I wil make her feels regret.

Ken

I always think bout her. Does she think about me ? She knew wats is she thinking. If i knew she dun lik me along den dun trick me till i find it out by myself . Does she know how hard to forget sumone that u love him or her . I think tat she never even think of me how i feel about her. And i brought her a present, and i thought i will giv it to her that show how much i love her. I think tat she never appreciate me on anything. I type this is bcoz its how i felt now. My prediction mayb is not goin to my way of life.

Ya . Byran ...is a bad day for me . Really a bad day. I really feel lik wan to ...haiz dunno la Bryan ..i reli dunno

my life is hard. Sumone turn me down and she lik my best fren. I was so sudden. Now my heart is full in pain and is bleeding. Now i never want to meet her again. Every night and day i think bout her feel bout her. And She treats me lik a dog. I promise myself i will never see her again.

Well ...on friday my frenz and i went to 'len sen' to play badminton . So nice . Luckyly i went there is good for my training for my games carnival . Im joining the badminton competition . I want to be the first 'Helang' house to win in first place in badminton and beat Seladang . i'll try my best to win it ..

                      looook at that idiot ...dunno how to play ...........................

I have often dream,

About far of place,

Where the Hero's welcome,

will be waiting for me,

When the crowed were cheer,

When they see my face,

And the voice keep saying 'this is where i meant to be'

I'll be there someday,

I could go the distance,

I will find my way,

If i can be strong,

I will walk every mile,

Will be worth my while,

I will find where i belong.

Thanks Wing Yue for telling me what had been going on . Anyway tomorrow is the first day of school and also my first day of tuition . I hope it will be the best year for me . Come on God, give me something to show .

Haiz ...she not here today . Im getting far apart from her now . Anyway, today my nephew should meet up with me at the club . When i arrived there nobody were there but nevermind i don't blame them . I been worried about her now . She din text me and i didn't see her online pass this few days . I wonder how is she now .

There is someone have made me to update my blog every now and then . Im quite happy, usually i do not blog at all but now, almost everyday . Well, she is kind, funny, cute and many more about her . I could not described bout her a lot . Is quite complicated seriously . Now days she is unhappy, sad and busy . I din saw her online now . Quite less but i'll wait .

Yesterday, we din not get to play badminton because is fully book . From 3 o'clock till 9 pm . We were quite pissed off but we dun mind and we go for swimming instate . After the swimming, i went to my cousin house to have dinner with them . Is quite bored actually, but i could get used to it .